Something is making the anxiety worse. I'm glad you mentioned the wellbutrin, I forgot that increased anxiety is a possible side effect. The klonopin is good to numb it, but I just get triggered right back into a panic attack when it wears off.

I can't think of anything this time of year that could trigger anything. I'm really bad at remembering dates of things anyway, I have to write important stuff down. It's always a surprise to me when someone reminds me of an anniversary that's coming up or recently passed.

I called the doc today, and my therapist. Everyone at the clinic I go to is so busy, I don't know if I'll be able to get in this week. I left messages, saying that I'm doing so badly. I told the doc about the panic attacks when I go off the klonopin, and that even without it I'm having several attacks a day. I haven't gotten an answer from either one. I don't have a follow up with the doc until near the end of May.

I've been kind of holding off on the ptsd stuff until I see my therapist again. I can only recall one trauma in my past, and I don't see it causing any of what's going on now, but I could be wrong. I don't want to diagnose myself, and I want someone else's opinion on things.