I don't know if its transference or not. In the beginning I thought he was arrogant and not very nurturing. As he got to know me better he was very kind and gentle. I promised myself I wouldn't get close or needy. He was like the parent or older sibling I have always dreamed of. He became my safety net and my nurturer. I wanted him hold me but would never say so. I have told him I had feelings for him. He never embarrassed me nor did he discuss it with me. As time went on it became less of AN infatuation or crush and more of a respected and comforting thing. I know it will be hard to eventually leave.