((olanza)) Yes, that "option" kept me alive for a very long time...along with the "not now" mantra... because as long as I could think how to , I didn't need to...and on the other end of the spectrum, when I was very low in the dark I told myself not now because I don't want to make any decisions when I'm not at my best. Just keep it as an "option" though---okay?

IDK why you cannot collect SS or SSDI... keep asking people till you find one who helps. Social workers at the local ER often have consults and resources without charge... you may need to take some self inventories to find out what you now would like to do and are able to do.... can you change doctors? I went through hundreds of quacks before I put together a good team.