I enjoyed being with him the first few years, he was from a different culture, I found it all so interesting. Years later he showed he had no respect for me. He would sometimes pretend to play fight, which was actually about humiliating me, he would be walking behind and shove my shoulders with his hands, almost tripping me. Everyone would stare. I got upset, he said you could have done it back, stop being a victim again, it was a joke.

I would try and have a conversation in a restaurant about a problem, he would talk about womens bodies really loudly, use the word c*ck, t*ts, put his fist up to my face as the waiter was there. When I looked shocked, he thought it was funny and said grow up,you're so reserved.

He kept excluding me from a relationship he was having with a girl for a year, he teased me sexually about her saying he saw her thong, asked me to take part in a threes*me with her, said what would I do if I caught him with lipstick on him after meeting her etc...yet refused to introduce me,

He would hide all her texts from me, so I ended up looking, she said how much she missed him when she didn't see him for a week with crying emoticons.She said how cosy she felt with him. How she fell in love with his music. How much she has grown since she met him.
He offered to cook for her when she was sick, they have been hanging out in his car alone.He has gone to doctors to get sick notes for her, saying "look how I take care of you". He said happy valentines day to her.

He said to his friend he was waiting for a moment and signal to ***** her, which he passed off as a dirty joke between men and me over reacting, since I loved drama and was jealous apparently. He told me all his friends had no idea why he was with me, that I was a crazy ******. Whenever I tried to stand up for myself, he would refer to me as ***** brains or whatever names he came up with. He left me when he demanded to see me after meeting this girl again behind my back. I refused, he said to keep being fixated when we are just friends, and continue living in my imaginary world.

Haven't heard from him since. I feel ashamed I allowed this to happen.

Finding it hard to pick myself up, and look anyone in the eye.

My self esteem is at an all time low. What helped you feel better?

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