you know I just discovered something...I have been feeling guilty about having a mental illness...interesting...I thought it must be something I did wrong....well that thinking is really screwed up...I got hit at first by the loss of a girlfriend...I didn't know what hit me...I wouldn't talk for two weeks...I couldn't talk...I was not guilty....I was not guilty....I did not cause my mental illness...I cant believe how I have been living with guilt all these years..