Sometimes I feel really feminine, I want to wear dresses and put lipstick. But the thought of being called my birth name causes me to cringe. Same with being called she. This causes me great discomfort, as I am transgender. But sometimes I wish I could just go out and try it. But I already came out as transgender to my family and school. I feel like a indecisive fake. I'm starting to be confused on my gender identity again. Help? I am really starting to feel suicidal from this.