its easy to die... its hard to live...
but dieing doesn't solve these issues, not for you.. me... us... them...
it just closes our book, and leaves it setting on the floor...
the end of us will ring through out the rest of all of those close to us... they never forget when someone they cared about has died...
we have to see how valuable we are in those peoples lives, even if they never let us know...
i don't live for myself, i live for others.... my family... for you all...
would be too easy to make all the pain stop, but it would reverberate through everyone elses life causing my pain to spread to others and thats the last thing i want...

im sorry you are hurting.... try to focus on the beauty of life.... sometimes its easy to lose focus of it... and become blinded by all of the dark painful things in life...