|
Mar 29, 2016, 03:10 PM
|
 |
|
|
Member Since: Jul 2004
Location: transitioning to pluto
Posts: 3,461
|
|
I was not going to add my 2 cents, but if you know me at all, you know I can have trouble keeping quiet sometimes.
I was a tad surprised when I first heard that you had been lying. I had actually been gone from chat for a bit when the truth first came out. I smirk a bit when I think of how the topic of you came up. I was talking to an online/forever/best/wicked awesome friend. She asked me about something I had just done. I chuckled and responded with, "I was hoping no one would remember I was doing that. BlindedByTheDark is the only one who would ever remember anyway."
It was odd when I first returned to chat after my brief hiatis from everything. A couple people asked me about you. All I knew was that you had lied and your account was suspended. The answer I gave to these questions was "her account is suspended and this is all I know"
Eventually I tracked down this thread. I read and read and read some more.
When done, my decision was to not reply. It did not matter what I thought or felt. Everyone is going to have an opinion and sharing mine would not change a thing.
Then today came and I saw a few new replies. I absolutely loved reading SeeSaws thoughts. I do not agree with everything written, but I respect her thoughts. Then I saw that BaseLine replied. No way I can keep quiet now. BaseLine has my utmost respect and I figured if she replied I should/could/would as well. Odd? we have never met IRL.
Also, by waiting before speaking, I am able to act, Not React to this situation. Always better for me to take a minute and chill.
So,
Knowing the truth I ask myself this.... "Is it possible to be surprised yet not be surprised at the same time?" I looked back at some things and thought, "maybe I was right after all?" There had been a couple of inconsistencies with our interactions. No ones business really, but I did speak with a couple trusted friends about them (not while on PC). The responses I got were, "Maybe she had help?" and "Anna is never wrong when it comes to numbers." As #8 Always, I know a thing or two about numbers and obsession and listening to my gut. I really need to work on trusting my gut.
So,
Do not expect me to treat you any different now that you do not have autism. Shoot, my DX's have changed, why can't yours? See, I am laughing again.  I just thought about the time I was yelled at for something I said to you. "The exact words were, "don't you know she is autistic?"
"Ummmm, Yes, I do. and I should treat her different WHY?"
I do recall sticking up for you a few times, but it was not because you had autism. It was because you had been treated poorly. I would have stuck up for almost anyone.
If you come back, Great. If you don't, that is too bad.
So,
After reading this, you will continue to love me or not, continue to hate me or not, or if I did it right, you might learn something or not. What's wicked cool is that it does not make a difference to me what most of you think.
Also, I think BlindedByTheDark is still the most creative name I have ever seen. But BlueEyedMama will always make me smile.
I can hear my Husbands voice in my head. "Just hit publish!!!!"
|