I am on the journey of trying to figure out who I am after ten years of addiction to prescription pills.

I joined PsychCentral back in September/October (this is my new account, I had trouble logging in upon return). So technically, I'm not new to the forums.

These forums really helped me a lot in the first stages of my recovery. I am home all the time with my daughter & didn't feel like attending meetings in the beginning.

The last few months, I have been doing some heavy duty soul searching. I literally didn't even know who I was from years of addiction. I felt like I was in a cocoon for ten years and upon coming out of it, I literally am a different person.

It's been a very strange road just getting where I am at now. Over the last 7 months, I've cried, I've felt guilty, I've felt embarrassed, I've felt sorrow, joy, love, inner happiness. It's been a broad spectrum of emotions.

Basically, I am just trying to figure out how to start rebuilding my life. I have to do it one day at a time, and not get too overwhelmed. I have so many things that I have to fix. I need to take drug classes to get my license reinstated that I lost 5 years ago. (Yes, I've been without a license for 5 years bc I could never have passed the mandatory drug testing done in the classes). That is the first thing I have to do.

I've made doctor and dentist appointments in an attempt to finally start taking care of myself again. It's going to be a long hard road out of the hell that I've put myself through.

Does anyone have an similar experiences or advice? [emoji4]

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