I'm BPII and it's still hard to tell. My first 3 episodes were clear as day, a sharp swing starting with waking up one day feeling absolutely wired and as if I was on drugs.

This year, not sure. I would rate myself a 6 or 7 out of 10, 5 being normal, but I feel as if I am acting normal for the first time.

Maybe I'm used to it? Maybe it has become more gradual and drawn out into more elaborate episodes?

Who knows?

But seriously, does anyone know why?

Maybe my other episodes were gradual too but I had less insight?