Hello Reizo: Welcome to PsychCentral... from the Skeezyks! May you find the time you spend here to be of benefit. With regard to your post. I'll simply second what Sophiesmom wrote. I wish you great success with your renewed efforts. Beyond that, I'll just suggest that, after a while, if you find you simply can't get past this break-up by yourself, seek out the services of a qualified therapist who can help you to deal with your feelings. And, don't wait too long. These sorts of emotions can become a rut from which you may find it difficult to escape. Good luck!