Hi doubtful, and welcome to PC.

Could you enlist the aid of your pdoc in communicating with your therapist on why you have eliminated many of your meds right now? Maybe he can help explain to her how your suicidal ideation is not worse now that you are only on a benzo, and in fact, maybe some of the med cocktail was contributing to your problems. Maybe your T can be reassured if she hears from a professional that you are not worse now that you are only on a benzo.

Congrats on getting free from some of your meds that were not helping. I believe meds can be very helpful, but if you and your pdoc realize they are not helping, I see no reason to hang in there on them.

I had a counselor before my current therapist, and she was vehemently opposed to meds. I'm not a gung ho med person myself, but I am open to them. It interfered with my therapy to have her so in my face with her anti-meds view. I was really feeling down, severely depressed for months, barely getting through each day, and she said she wouldn't treat me if I took an anti-depressant. I just felt like my therapy shouldn't have these constraints and she should stay out of the meds area--she wasn't an MD, after all, so she should stick to her area of expertise. Anyway, I think it can cause problems in therapy when the therapist interferes with a well thought out and considered approach to meds by the client and the client's doctor.

Maybe you don't even need to discuss your meds with your therapist. Just keep that topic out of the therapy room. I have never discussed meds with my current therapist. If your therapist brings it up, just deflect the question by saying, "Thanks for your concern. I'm working on that issue now with my psychiatrist."