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Old Mar 30, 2016, 10:43 AM
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Originally Posted by ElsaMars View Post
Right now, I think I see clearer than ever. I feel more than sane. I'm certain I am psychic. Things are definitely happening to confirm this belief. It's ok for now, but I've bypassed two of my safety measures and I might need to reavalute this current course.

I recognize I don't usually believe this. I mean, sometimes I wonder if I might be a secret genius, but that doesn't last more than a 4th grade math question or two. And yes, I have come to accept that I can sometimes be unually perceptive. But not psychic, and I'm having what I call "bad thoughts". This doesn't mean I'm feeling violent, it means things are taking a turn for the negative in my mind. Turning unpleasant.

But once again the thoughts that "this time you are seeing the real truth" is strong in me. My grounding measures are working, but flimsy and I need to reorganize.

I don't know if I'm crazy. Sometimes I'm sure of it but other times I think something else is going on. I know that society would deem me as such and sometimes I feel that is important to consider. I can't say what I think right now about society.
Transient strong and consequential beliefs are very difficult, but they are still yours. Just put a high-pass filter (some would say low-pass, considering strength and contrast) in place: if the frequency of having certain beliefs is frequent enough, just use it as a valid assumption.

Changing beliefs can really disintegrate the self/soul. Saying it is a MI is not helping at all: half of your life or more should be cured. That's cruel and self-destructive/-dismissive/-annulling! Toxic mindset.
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