I've journaled off and on forever. I start getting into it and eventually I just feel like I don't have the time, so I stop doing it. I think it's helpful though, and I do recommend it to people who are having problems.

I'm a little over 2 hours in now, and still feeling pretty good. I don't know if there was anything specific that was ramping up my anxiety, not that's changed I guess. My supervisor asked last night if I felt a little better knowing I have options, and I guess I do. It's nice knowing that I now have the paperwork for medical leave, and I'll be able to use it if I want. I've had so many bosses in the past who hated people being off because they were sick, so taking so much time lately has made me a little nervous.

I used to think something like ambien would just be horrible to take, but I'm so glad now that I have it. My sleep was becoming so disrupted all the time, and I was taking 10-20mg of melatonin and an otc sleep aid every night. I haven't been using either of those since getting the ambien, but I have been sleeping so well. Good enough that I haven't been moving much in my sleep, and my shoulder is so sore from sleeping on it the last like week!

It'll be nice when I get the energy back to get things done at home too! Lately work is all I can really handle, when I get home I'm just worn out. My bf has been helping out a lot though, with cooking and cleaning that I just can't get the motivation to start. If I don't end up using my medical leave I might just change my hours for a while, back to 5 days a week. Working 10 hours is a long time.