I'm glad she can see me too. I just need to make myself be completely honest with her about how things have been lately. I like to downplay my problems to pretend that I'm more OK than I really am. I don't like feeling like I need help. I felt bad after getting off the phone, because I have to rearrange a couple things in my schedule to make the appointment. But then I almost started crying, so I know that I need this.

Fixing my diet is the next challenge I have. I don't eat well at all. Don't have the energy to cook often, so we eat a lot of fast food and take-out. Plus lately I haven't felt well from all the anxiety, so I haven't been eating much period. And I sometimes get in these little stubborn spots where I feel mad at myself for whatever silly reason I have, and I'll stop eating to punish myself. My bf has picked up on that really quick though, he's getting in the habit of asking me when I get home at night if I've eaten yet, and if I haven't he will make me eat.