i always tend to downplay everything, but after all these years of going through different things i've come to terms that if i can get someone i trust to work with me, im going to be open about everything - that way we can face the problem together and hopefully they can help me work through it

it seems like you have a really good guy
try to let his love for you over come you - over power these things, it wont cure it but it might can help if you focus on that more when things get bumpy

i know a good girl would really help pull me through my rough times, and i would focus every ounce of energy i had on that love so i wouldnt have any energy left for the anxiety and depression

but i haven't had many relationships... fell in love 1 time but that was a sham and ended with nothing but stupid confusing pain from being manipulated