I really struggle with needing to be OK for everyone else. Even before I started working in this field, I gave everything I had to everyone around me and didn't bother taking much care of myself. It's even harder to do that now, but I still feel like I'm admitting a flaw or weakness by asking for help and admitting how bad I am.

It helps to have him in my life, even though I feel like a burden. It's hard for me to accept that he really does love me because I don't feel like I deserve it. This is the first good relationship I've had. There have been plenty of guys in the past who treated me like I was worthless,