Being in recovery and having been around the rooms it sounds like... you know that we are not to trust our feelings for the sabatouge us everytime. And we are not our feelings or our emotions... those are just symptoms of memories floating to the surface and how we deal with them. Anytime we are in recovery from substance abuse, regardless of what it is the body as well as the mind goes through withdrawls and we act out unrationally. As the saying goes... this too shall pass... tc and blessings