mmm.. not sure. I always relied on medication and therapy to get me through or just medication, once I hit week 4 on meds I mustered the ability to go out in my unit's backyard area and sun myself , the week after that I took a walk at a park/lake. small goals. once I took a long shower and drove out to get a cup of coffee and called it a day. it's just hard to do so many things, so I did small things & built up to big things and i checked this and the depression forums a lot, watched TED talks about depression and other stuff, watched college lectures online, I found this website called mentalfloss and read that.

I had 0 motivation when I was depressed my small accomplishments were brushing my teeth, take shower while standing up instead of sitting down, sit up in my bed.. then I increased it to the stuff above. sometimes you have those down spells, but every day is an accomplishment in itself. is there stuff you can watch like Netflix? or Hulu or Amazon prime ?