Here again..

The last few days, I've been plagued with this feeling that 'I'm not good enough for this world'.. It kills me.

I've been dealing with really deep core shame lately and believe this is connected to that.. The other day, I told my therapist I felt that not only should I not have been born, I never should have existed in any way, shape or form.. She made me see I do have value but now I'm still here where I think I shouldn't have been born..

Again, I think this goes back to my dad not only disliking children, but absolutely hating them.. But isn't it so that our parents are not 'God' - what they think or feel isn't 'how it is', it's just their opinion? So, even though I wasn't enough for him, I'm still good enough to be alive?

Thanks for reading