I agree with the others. Definitely cut yourself slack on this one! Parenting is hard period! We plan to be perfect at it, we convince ourself we can be, and then we give birth. Autism is hard, it definitely has its challenges and each kid is unique. My son has aspergers so while I don't know exactly what you go through, I can probably relate in some way. My son is doing well right now so he's not a matter of stress at current, but it's been so hard to watch him struggle in the past so I relate to needing that break. Take it and recharge.