Its empty yes. I have been abandoned by my father, then cut off from 28 years ago. Lost my brother to suicide and my mother died suddenly of aneruisme, too young. Lost my last abusive x husband which was to trauma and shock to me / him wanting a green card only, he never got here ), my life is lonely and empty for sure.

I have my sister in east.

Me and my sister dont want to be alone and lonely. It eats us up on the inside. She will soon get help for her alcoholism and when she drinks she chose to sit with someone who drinks too, to not be alone. We feel its better to have someone than not have anybody at all. We both need care, someone who give some attention and care and nurturing, its like a hunger. Without we might wither and die.