That term Black Mania is used in my DBSA support group. It's a depression with the energy and force of mania.
The worst episode of my life. Well I think the one I had at age 19 was one Black too.
I'm in my mid 50's. Menopause was very hard. Had to keep changing my psych Meds. Regular MD didn't want me on hormones. ( why, I don't know
But I haven't had anymore Sui thoughts.
Sometimes if I let myself get upset about my weight,( Seraquel. ) then I get a little bit, like if I were dead I wouldn't have to worry about it.
I've been pretty active and lean most of my life. But I do have skinny and fat clothes.
My arms are much better since swimming. No more sagging skin. Yay.
Now it's time to rid cellulite on upper thighs and get rid of new tummy.
Boobs are huge, but were big to begin with,so ok.