Hey Evaluna: I hear ya. I just turned 59 two weeks ago. I gave up on the 'should haves'. There is no hope or desire to marry or have kids. There is no future so, I just wait.

You're still young. I know you hear that a lot but I'm not being flippant.

You are not being irrational. I think we all mourn something we lost or never had. You can always find solace here as there's lots of caring folks.

Regards, M. Poirot