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Originally Posted by tearsinabottle
Its empty yes. I have been abandoned by my father, then cut off from 28 years ago. Lost my brother to suicide and my mother died suddenly of aneruisme, too young. Lost my last abusive x husband which was to trauma and shock to me / him wanting a green card only, he never got here ), my life is lonely and empty for sure.
I have my sister in east.
Me and my sister dont want to be alone and lonely. It eats us up on the inside. She will soon get help for her alcoholism and when she drinks she chose to sit with someone who drinks too, to not be alone. We feel its better to have someone than not have anybody at all. We both need care, someone who give some attention and care and nurturing, its like a hunger. Without we might wither and die.
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Have you decided to meet him, and that's final? Have you had feelings for him all these 28 years? or it's just a sudden surge of feelings after you found yourself alone, and he communicated with you?
Loneliness sucks, and it makes us make not the right decisions. I encourage you to reconsider the whole thing. If you want to meet and talk about the past, meet him in public. I'm sure it's a phase for you right now you feel you need someone to connect with, things will get better. You just need to believe. Someone else will come along who deserves to be with you. I don't think being with the wrong person is better than loneliness.