You're not alone! I struggled and I mean struggled with this for years. Whatever could possibly blow up and explode during that time would and I would be essential helpless. It was as if I didn't know how to operate in this foreign mental state I was in, as if I were Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, that's what I called it.

That was when I would be irritable, argumentative, irresponsible, cry for no reason or any reason, be mean, lash out, misunderstand everything, self harm, blow up, etc., etc. Some 30 years later a combination of things happened that finally gave me some peace, a hysterectomy for other reasons, psychotherapy, menopause and meds.

Wish I had a great solution for you but I don't have one. Just wanted you to know you aren't alone. I thought I was the only one who had that problem for a long time. It was hell.