Hi all, new here. Sorry for the long post.

I work overnights (7p-7a or 11p-7a) in a very busy veterinary hospital as a vet tech. The overnight shift is understaffed as it is, and we cross-cover the ER as well. All ER staff leaves at midnight so essentially we have 4 people running the entire hospital overnight. They have at least 12 people during the day.

New management has recently been brought in and they are cracking down on everyone, but especially night shift.

In December, just before Christmas, my hours were cut by 10% (only night shift had hours cut). Per my manager, "it's only 4 hours." Because of this cut, I missed a credit card repayment plan payment and now I am being forced into filing for bankruptcy.

I have been called into the supervisor's office so many times, either for being disciplined for taking sick days when I am legitimately sick (with Drs note), or multiple incidents when the wording of what I write in emails and medical notes is gone through word by word and I am told that the "tone" of my words is inappropriate. My boss made me write her an apology because she was offended by the "tone" of an email I sent relating to one technician who has 12 hours of regularly scheduled overtime built into her schedule (meanwhile night shift is having hours cut). Instead of addressing the issue of the favoritism and the fact that now nobody else can pick up overtime, the meeting became about how I need to tone down my emails and think about how they might be perceived, and I was accused of wanting to take the special snowflake's shifts (which I could not have done even if I wanted to).

I also received feedback that several coworkers anonymously reported that I am "unpleasant" to work with and "relentlessly negative." I have been actively working on trying not to say anything during my shift in order not to offend anyone. My boss said "I sense you're taking this feedback personally." NO KIDDING. You drop this bomb on me and provide no assistance as to how to change, and then you say I shouldn't take it personally???

When asked if she had had any reports that I am behaving better, she will only say "it appears you are trying to do better." The new management brought in was pre-warned about me by this manager and they never got a chance to meet me without being prejudiced against me.

What worries me is that this is a repeating pattern in my work life. My last job was also high-stress and zero-tolerance for absences, and I was fired for requesting a one-week medical leave for depression (not FMLA eligible at that point). I see this pattern repeating again as I dread going to work every night.

Are there any ways of managing depression and anxiety when you have a job that, except for the people you work with on your shift, provides no happiness or satisfaction? I feel like a complete failure on a daily basis and I feel as if management is singling me out as an example in order to eventually fire me. I do qualify for FMLA at this point. I just need coping strategies in order to get out of bed and into work every single day. I am not allowed to take any more sick days for any reason for the next 6 months or I will be fired. The thing is that I consistently receive excellent reviews for my patient care and ethics and I will go to bat for my patients even against doctors who treat me like a nobody.

I don't know. I have had trouble with attendance in every job I've ever had. Absences have mostly been due to anxiety and depression.

Sorry for rambling. I am on the verge of quitting this job without anything lined up, which is a bad life choice, but the nitpicking and the negativity is not letting up despite trying everything I know how to do to meet all of the expectations.