I have the best doc and T and feel very thankful for this. In the past I have had a lot of awful, damaging 'help' so it is such a relief to finally find the right clinicians. My T is highly experienced and can read me well to guide me in the right direction. I have been seeing him for nearly 6 years and doubt I would be here without him. No fantasies about him though. My pdoc is also amazing. He is the first pdoc I have really trusted as he has proven himself to be genuinely caring and brilliant at his job. For years I went through crap pdoc and T, one after the other, and I was drowning. Now I am stable more often than ever before.