Tomarrow night and Monday night I will be in the hospital for a sleep test. I am afraid while I am there they will see me hallucinating and stuff and send me to the psychiatric unit. I have not been doing so well lately. My hallucinations are not making me a danger to myself or others. Its more annoying than anything. I don't want to be in that part of that hospital ever again. I had bad experiences there. When I was admitted there they knew of my past history of being sexually abused. One of the other patients was going around showing his ding dong to other paitents. I went to the staff and told them. They said if I don't like it go to my room. I went to my room only for him to pin me in there showing me his ding dong. I shoved him and screamed. The nurses came to the rescue so I thought. Instead they said I was out of control and put me in a seclusion area which pissed me off and made me more upset. Which they then shot me up with drugs and told me to strip so they can put me in suclusion cloths. I refused for many reasons one of which was there were male security guards there. Well Because I refused they (The security guys) pinned me down and stripped me. After getting into the seclusion cloths I really did just totally lose it. I had a clip in my hair hidden and I started SI ing like mad I did not care that the nurses were watching. Next thing I know They tie me down to a bed in five point restraints. Which along with all of this just caused flash back after flash back or my rape. They left me there all night tied to a bed. So I am terrified to have this test done because they watch you all night. What if I do something that causes them to move me to psyc. Maybe I will just cancel this test.