Hello guiltier... Don't take your cue from the insurance company, they see us as a bunch of premiums until they have to pay. I am so sorry you can't get your meds. Maybe someone here will have a practical suggestion. I just want to say that I see value in you and I can empathize with your pain and with your struggle and I know that doesn't help much but I hope it might make you feel less alone. I think it is OK sometimes to curl up and cry I wish I could give you a hug. Hope things get better... back to having some pretty good days.