Does anyone else struggle at night? I think this is more grief related than BP related but still. When I'm alone in bed in the dark my mind just goes crazy. Especially now that I'm not sleeping as well. I just think about how much I miss my husband and how lonely I am. Or I'll think about things that are happening in the future, like how I'm going out for my birthday on Saturday or how I'm going back to work Monday. I just can't shut my mind off. Part of it is my medication. I was doing much better with sleep in the past two weeks - asleep by midnight, which is better than two or three in the morning. Yesterday I fell asleep at like 12:30 but got woken up by my son at 12:45 and didn't go back to sleep until 2.

I'm just so so lonely. I hate sleeping alone. I can't even get my cat to sleep with me. Once in awhile he will but most of the time he's out on the couch. I almost want to get a dog so it'll sleep with me at night. I just don't want the responsibility of a dog.

But night was hard for me even before my husband died. I just don't like the dark. Anything can happen in the dark. I don't like it. I always think I hear noises like my son moving around and then I expect him to open his door and Come in my room.

I wish I could sleep. Or at least take something for sleep.

Anyone else have trouble at night?