I've never purposely harmed myself while manic but that's when I'm accident prone. I'm more likely to willfully harm myself--I've made a few lame attempts, while in a long lasting depression. I'm very indecisive while depressed and therefore unlikely to come up with what seems to be a good plan for ending it all. I am frightened that there will come a time I do come up with a plan to carry out successfully. I really rather succumb to some other illness.