My most dangerous phase is when I'm in a mixed state. The depressions tells me all is lost, it is hopeless and I also have delusions surrounding death (like if I kill myself I will be transported to another better dimension). The mania gives me the energy, motivation and impulsiveness to act. I get very irritable when mixed and it can become unbearable. It is in this state that most of my attempts have occurred. When euphoric and manic I do put myself in danger but i don't want to die.