Hey. Thanks so much for the replies. I don't have many people to talk to, and simply knowing that there is somebody out there who listens to my story already helps me a lot.

I am still not much better. Three days ago, my girlfriend (ought to say 'ex' I suppose) was at home. We had to sign the termination of our apartment and I tried my best to keep it 'professional'. But she bursted into tears and said that she "doesn't want that", referring to the contract. She said that she missed me and she still hasn't decided. Now, two days later, I am quite certain she has. It was somewhat comforting to know that she, too, goes through the emotional process of detachment. It burdens me very much that she left me in this limbo of uncertainty, telling me that it's most likely over, but she's still thinking it over. It's a cruel thing to do, but I know she doesn't do it to torture me.
Since then I've spent every day trying to get myself back to the state of acceptance; trying to see that it really *is* over. It feels like my process of recovery was reset, and is now stuck until something happens. If only I could focus my thoughts on anything else.. or get any work done. It's agonizing.