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Originally Posted by EdgyUsername
Almost every friend I've ever had, I've always gotten to a point where I just suddenly feel as if I'm not wanted around them anymore...
It's excruciating, It happens without warning, I start to get emotional and feel as if I don't fit into the equation, or I never did, I've just been fooling myself, I don't really have a purpose being in peoples lives, nor do I have the right to have any emotional attachment to them. they have/deserve friends better than me. I'm not needed, I'm just there.
I get depressed about it, contemplate suicide, and then realize I'm too afraid to actually do anything.
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I can relate to a lot of this, I only had friends at school but they would never met up with me outside of school even though they would regularly meet up with others in the group, I put it down to not being able to put myself out there because I don't quite fit in a certain group and not being able say something interesting. I did have some oppurtunities with people who liked anime/manga or similar music to me but I'm not a hardcore fan and even though we lived close to each other I couldn't take the relationship outside of school so when I left school all my friendships died but I always felt like a spare part and a burden.