I broke down sobbing to my T saying how I wish I was heterosexual. I identify as bi/pansexual.

She's cisgender heterosexual Christian. I'm cisgender pansexual ex Christian. My nation still criminalises homosexuality.

She asked if I was out to my parents, who are very LGBTQ phobic. I said I wasn't. She pointed out that they assume I'm heterosexual and already do not accept me or love me due to my personal beliefs (such as being an atheist, feminist, my liberal stance on LGBT).

If I come out to my parents, I am terrified that I will be pressured into diversion therapy.

I believe I am experiencing internalized homo/bi phobia. (I'm cisgender and perfectly ok with transgender people).

She also said it doesn't matter if I'm born LGBT or became LGBT due to trauma and that I need to accept my sexual orientation.

Are those ex gay / conversion therapy sites correct? Some of the studies they cite seem so convincing and I don't know how to evaluate such things for credibility.

My parents and many people including my psychiatrist (in a supposedly secular, but in fact very Christian mental health care system) believe that "non heterosexual sexual orientation" is due to early childhood experiences such as emotional neglect, various forms of abuse and other traumas.

Those ex gay sites sometimes have "case studies" of clients who were badly treated in childhood.

My psychiatrist has also suggested that I can seek out conversion therapy and that from his "20+ years experience as a psychiatrist, there are very few true homosexuals".

He thinks I am bisexual because I fear men and see women as safer and due to my child abuse history (he said so).
I know the American Psychiatric Association and World Psychiatric Association say conversion therapy is harmful.

I'm in the closet and I don't know any LGBT person without a history of trauma...(I only know 4 people because I'm very socially isolated)

Please tell me those ex gay sites are wrong... And link me to good studies because my parents will quote those studies published by ex gay sites...

I'm really sorry if I sound really ignorant. Sex education in my country's education system frames LGBT as wrong and even school counsellors won't talk about LGBT because it's against the education system's policies.

Churches run conversion therapy programs and there's no positive media coverage of LGBT. There's no anti discrimination laws etc too.

I'm an adult now but I don't know what websites are credible regarding LGBT research.