Insurance companies are driven by profit. You and I and all "subscribers" are sources of their profit. They do not ascribe value to any person unless the person can bring them profit. But they're not valued as a person, only as a revenue stream.

You have inherent worth simply as being a living human being. You don't have to do anything to earn it or prove it. You deserve care and love and regard.

How can the insurance deny medication? That seems a pretty basic provision.
Do you know some one who can advocate for you, if you are too tired to do it? Sometimes I cannot advocate for myself and my therapist or spouse have stepped in.

I hope you can feel better soon and get the medication you need.