Thank you Guiltier don't feel foolish for reaching out even if someone responds negatively you never know how positively it will sit in their heart and mind and maybe they will come to appreciate it later.

I appreciate your reaching out to me... I am having a really hard time and I'm having trouble trying to offer help to others. And I'm having great trouble trying to reach out IRL for help for myself. I know my coworkers are concerned about me but now i'm so withdrawn from them and I can't bring myself to talk to them. I've built a complete wall around myself I noticed this morning that when I sneezed no one in the room even said "Bless You" to me because I've made it seem like I don't want to be talked to. I have no one IRL to talk to except for doctor appointments and the past few weeks I've tried to reach out to people at work but I guess I am too subtle because they haven't been returning my conversation and I hate to admit this but I am desparate for someone in the group to reach out and talk to me and I just can't stand it there anymore. Why can't I initiate any kind of talk with just one person there if I need it so much?