One more thing - the relationship (pdoc - sexual) that really screwed me up was horribly awful and inappropriate even though I stopped seeing her before we developed a relationship.

However, I am slowly becoming "friends" with my former therapist in that we text little things every couple weeks and have met for coffee once. She has been limitedly available for me if I'm having a hard time by writing me a couple sentences of support. I'm confident that we will develop into a stronger friendship in the future, and it will be healthy, but I genuinely think it will take longer than a year or two to approach there.