As a teenager I struggled with a similar situation, [I lost my mother to cancer aged 14] my relationships with women were difficult and I found women who would be maternal towards me comforting. Longterm however this wasn't the best thing for me. It took a long time for me to realize that no one could be the person that I wanted them to be.

Saying all of this, I'd like to offer you my friendship and support. If that's something you'd like of course.