I'm glad to hear you are in counseling!

Maybe you could work with the counselor on another way to feel better and safe when having a panic attack in additon to or instead of sleeping under the bed. Have you tried relaxation exercises on a regular basis as well as for when crises come up? They helped me a lot is why I ask.

It is unusual for someone to sleep under the bed, true. How people react to that is about them, not about you. When someone can't or won't try to understand something or someone it comes out as non-accepting and that can hurt unless you can see that it's about them and their inability to understand. Many people just cannot understand something they have never experienced. It takes thought and careful consideration to be able to do that and some just can't; they quickly jump from thinking about it as if it's a hot coal.

So, since we can't control other's thoughts and actions, they get to think and act/react as they will. I notice you overlayed your thoughts onto their reaction by stating they were thinking something along the lines of they shouldn't be talking to you; in reality that is your thought and you don't know what their thought is unless they offer it or you ask. Try to notice when you're making your thoughts someone else's as I know from experience that often creates unecessary hurt since the thoughts begin within you, get applied to the other person, then cause you to feel hurt. I hope that makes sense to you.

Regardless, I'm sorry your panic makes you feel unsafe and I'm also sorry that you felt hurt.