Hi there.... I've replied to your post in the Native Spirituality thread so I won't repeat myself here.

It sounds like you are very depressed right now. Perhaps a med change could make a difference. Have you talked to any docs or therapists about this? I know when I am depressed I often feel disconnected and even desperate to find my way back to the connection I knew.

What are you doing to cope with the depression right now? I know that prayer and meditation are powerful coping skills but if you aren't feeling the benefits than maybe you need to to look at other ways to stabalize right now. I think it is hard for my spirit to get through to my head when I'm in a depressed state. I know I'm being ministered to by faith but I don't always feel it because the depression has such a strong hold that I've become desperate, detached and even frantic at times.

You will be okay. You will know that connection again because it is Creator's desire for you to know Him, to grow spiritually in his truth, to connect to your spiritual peace and understanding, to live in the comfort of His love.

Keep the faith and seek more help for the depression if that makes sense to you. It will be okay again. It is Creator's desire for us all.

Will keep you in my prayers and look forward to hearing about your re-connection. I know it's just a matter of time. I walk in that faith for you.