My childhood is at the root of my psychological and mood disorders. The physical and emotional abuse, the rape that went on from age 4-9 went unanswered by my mother, she says because we had nowhere else to go. The poverty and neglect, it all adds up to learning unhealthy coping skills and mistrust of the wrong people and accepting anything from anyone that doesn't seem abusive at the time. Time tells. I chose to not have children to stop the cycle of violence. I'm glad I learned of that in high school. My parents started liking me when I was an adult and moved 1,000 miles away. For me, it was too late.