Working the twelve steps of AA for 12 years helped me....make amends and etc....but, there's something simple I have said tomyself and believe whole heartidly.
1. I am truely sorry for the hurt I have caused others.
2 IF i could have done better I would have.
Then, I somehow feel that if others could do better they would too.
Well, except for those bully's in the playground, they jsut have no conscience, or something.
I have done a lot of stuff I could have easily killed myself for, but, dang, man, I want to know beauty.
It's inside of me, if I can see it, I must have it.
An old Teacher of mine told me, "I am the center of my own universe"(not in the selfish way)...meaning, I co-create!
I got really excited and started creating.......
I had to get mad at the weights holding me down....guilt.
SC**W guilt.

People with mental disabilites, I feel, have a leg up on some things, like imagination, I have really used imagination to the positive.
I've become a master swords-woman!
(among many other things.)
lol.

I once was at a the river, where I lived at the Y for 3 years, learning how to live....
I was watching a sun set and it was the most colourful sunset I have EVER seen!
Ever changing, it was as if the Sky Gods were up there playing with paint, slappingit there and here and just creating an everychanging masterpiece!
I looked aroudn to see if anybody else was seeing* this miracle, ...... out of no where I heard, "THIS IS HOW WE SEE YOU".
My head lowerd and the tears streamed down my face and chest.
I could barely walk my bike "home".
Seeing my reflection humbled me to the greatest of degree.

We are creations in action.