Thank you, I am so much like you. I don't take my own advice especially when it comes to my sister. I try and advise her, go to the doctor. Tell them the truth, ask to see a T, be honest. My sister instead goes to the doctor and for whatever reason, the doctor won't refer her to see a T, they gave her anti-depressants and left her to it. I know this sounds horrible but sometimes I feel like there's jealousy over my treatment and healing because she doesn't have a T and I do. She triggers me in the sense that she knows I have anorexia and she'll tell me that I've put on weight and look better with a fuller face and wider hips. With the PTSD she'll ask me about an event in my past and the majority of the time I'll have a flashback or blackout. I've asked her not to, but she does anyway.
My T told me to stay away from her, but she's my sister and I love my nieces and nephews, I don't want to distance myself but I know a little bit of distance wouldn't hurt.

I try and tell my sister how I got a T, I was honest and I told the doctor I won't survive on my own anymore. A few weeks later I had a permanent T. That's all I want for my sister is someone would is in their right mind state who can help her. I'm frustrated because there's nothing I can do, and going around in circles is emotionally damaging me. I should take my T's advice and give myself some breathing space.