Even though I post a lot it is usually in response to someone else's post...

I hurt so much inside...it hurts so...I don't know that I can express more than that know...

Wishing I could be more expressive to let everyone know how it hurts...what hurts...it's sad not to be able to express myself...

You all seem to be able to do it with what appears like ease...to what I feel...Stuff it in because I know what to do...just don't want to do it...so I just keep stuffing and stuffing everything in...it's like a numbness comes over me...paralyzed into doing nothing...

I constantly feel like a fraud...like a hyprocrate...like I constanlty am masquerading...one day it will call come crashing down and people will see the real me...and find that I'm loathsome, uncaring, egotistical, a complete and utter fraud that lied to everyone...