Many times. Its like my head knows and feels strong and my heart screams like this little girl not to be "left".

I have abandonment issues, clearly.

I can go on and on why but i just have severe abandonment issues.

I have kicked him out then cried about him leaving and why would he do that and he should fight to stay.

It's sick and pathetic and unhealthy and I'm sure a bunch of other words.

Sigh

😔😔😔