You are not the only one who has trouble expressing your feelings. I also have trouble expressing my feelings. I know that sometimes I look at this forum as an avenue to say stuff that I wouldn't normally say to anyone because I am anonoymus to all of you. No one really knows me on here and I can say things that I wouldn't normally say. I know that I say so much on here that no one...not even my T knows...it is ashame that we are not more expressive. I think the reason that we are this way is because we have learned to disguise or detach from our real feelings and masqared as someone who is not really the real person inside. I know that I have done that to the point that it feels like it is normal not to say what I am feeling...I just keep it inside so I don't rock the boat with anyone. My T says that I might be sinking the boat instead....Any how ...I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone.