Lately, as a way to channel my pain and frustration over my illness I've had these urges to orchestrate another school shooting like Virginia Tech or Columbine. But, everyone will be happy to know that I stopped that stuff. I told myself no. Just because I have schizophrenia, doesn't mean I can kill people and rob them of their lives. I threw my planning notebook away and now feel stupid for thinking of such %#@&#!. I'm not Seung Hui Cho. My illness hasn't taken over me and I won't let it happen no matter what...