I copied this from my other post. I wanted to see if anybody else has done such work!
I did go out and buy a self help/ workbook on connecting with your inner child. I read the first 2 chapters and the 3rd starts you on connecting with your inner child. So last night I locked myself in the bathroom with a bubble bath and candles and I started the inner child workbook part. With my left hand I held the colored pencil and just let it go, I drew her, as she is. What a unbelievable experience, the hand just went, until the picture was done. Not bad either for using my non dominant hand.........I then wrote a paragraph on what I see in the little girl from the picture.
Then I tried to picture her in a safe place, so first I tried my home, she would not come into focus, I then tried my T's office and she still would'nt come out, my sisters house, this is my safe place when I need grounding and she was still not viisble to me, I had to see her in her room, so I pictured her in our room, and she was there, sitting down in the corner. So I used my right hand and said "Hi", my left hand responded with a "hi", I asked her her name.
"Mickey", we talked about feeling sad and scared, she is angry with me for leaving her, I told her I was scared, and that I was sorry for leaving her for so long and leaving her alone, she told me she was scared also, and that I forgot about her....I did....I told her I made her a way out of the room that was safe, she could use it without having to be afraid to go through the abusers rooms, she told me she see's it, but doesn't trust big people! I told her I want to help her, I want to make her feel better, she told me to go away......I didn't push it, I told her I would leave but I would be back tomorrow, and could we talk, she said maybe.........
It was amazing to do this, when Mickey was getting mad, she would write big and hard on the paper, like she was yelling through the words, I was exhausted at the end of this excersice and still wound at the same time..........I so hope I can do this, for us!!
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